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Friday, August 28, 2009
Week 57 - Tipping points
I give my all to you
Send me and I will go for you
To the ends of the earth
I'll follow after you
I want the world to know
Your love endures forever
Tell me and I'll obey
This is far greater than sacrifice
Trusting you and not myself
Will always lead to blessing
LORD HAVE YOUR WAY IN ME
NOT MY WILL, YOURS BE DONE
**Ever wondered what it's like praying to God and asking Him to "continue to test me"? I wondered after last saturday's service. Almost immediately i regretted it. Planning ahead for this week i thought it'll already be tight, but Sunday's 2 seminars plus Monday and Tuesday night perpetually took whatever energy was left of my carcass out of me. At the same time i feared. Now fatigue has 2 levels, level 1 is when you're tired and still have energy to talk crap and sing songs. Level 2 is when you're dead inside already, but still wandering around doing your daily activities like a zombie. I feared that as level 2 hits, i may say the wrong things. Do the wrong things. Moods cranky. Thoughts run wild and unnecessary negative thoughts start to hit like penetrative bullets that the devil has purposefully planned to stumble us. Worry. Anxiety. I feared all these. After all, i experienced some of these last 2 semesters. **
Here I stand within your presence
Longing for your touch
A thousand days cannot compare
To one day in your courts
Hold me now
And never ever let me go
My jesus, my precious saviour
I'm forever yours
**Level 2 hit. But i thank God for being so so faithful. He was there, all the while. I couldn't even bring myself to be angry/upset even when many situations went awry. That verse "come to me, and i will give you rest" stood out. I prayed once again. And He answered. CG time was never better, wonderful time of worship which i sensed how each of us is going through our own difficulties and challenges. I pray that God will continue to speak through us and refresh us for the week ahead, as well as a great time of service tomorrow and singing praises to Him. And i promise i'll take more rest. =) **
I will worship you forever
I will worship you
God bless,
KuangTing
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nice choice of songs bro!
i love these two songs also...
it reminds me a lot of how i only need Him to hold me and it'll be enough for eternity
^^
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August 31, 2009 at 11:15 AM
Hi Bro,
Thanks for sharing your week with us on your blog. I've actually read it 3 times already. Haha, I come to check out your blog and Cassie's after I commented on JingYing's. Anyway, I think something you mentioned about asking God to test you and then holding on to faith was something that I have been going through as well. Honestly, God is testing me in ways I never experienced this semester and I can't really say I'm looking forward to it as I feel physically, spiritually and emotionally challenged. Though not defeated:) YES! With God's love for us we both know that God would never leave us in a challenge without providing a way out or if there is no way out, he will go through it with us. Why can I say that? Cos I have faith in him. And why do I have faith in him? Cos he has proven himself to be faithful time and time again. I am sure that God has been faithful with you too. In his still small voice I believe he is saying to you and me "trust me". I created the universe, I created you as well would I now know what you need? I sent my son to die for you to show the extent of my love for you, now would I not care about you? Trust me and see how I deliver you just like how I delivered the Israelite from their oppressors.
Blessed to have been in the same family as you
Jonathan
By Jonathan, at
September 1, 2009 at 1:29 AM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Week 56 - Desert, week 2 (17/8-21/8)
Last in first out (LIFO). Had bros GFG just now, great time of fellowship and cooking. As well as the teaching, it was really useful, which reminded us about who we are as followers of Christ despite a week that is getting busier. As we were cooking i was suddenly reminded of my mum. Talk about good food. The food that we cooked were certainly edible, though there was room for improvement still. But while comments and "mmm.. nice" were coming around (prob cuz we were hungry ourselves), good food coming from Mum (all mothers who cook at home) often gets taken for granted in the long run (Say 20 years?). Which brought about a tinge of sadness. I must remember that at meal times, besides thanking God for the food, i must thank Mum for her effort and make more comments about the food on a consistent basis.
Been surviving 5-6 hours of sleep every day. Early days, late nights. Hardly get to be at home, or even at HQ. Tested, not just physically, mentally, but even more so emotionally. It's hard to show that joyful face even when ure pleased after a good day with God for example, and when ure tired, probably it'll just be cui, cui and more cui. Spiritually i thought this week taught me alot (OJT style) on reliance on God, seeking solace in His word and praying. The desert. A period of deprivation, yet that focus on Him becomes all the more clearer. Love.
Awed by You,
Kuang Ting
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Friday, August 14, 2009
Week 55 - Desert or dessert?
God works in ways unfathomable. Brilliant. As Tim would put it on Tuesday, new lifestyle, God doing new works, i guess that's what kind of experience the first week of school would be. First, expectations just went up a few notches. Not just in our community, but also in classes as well. Second, loads of pruning and testing, and i sense that God is far from being done. Take this for example. Communication ain't the most natural thing for me to initiate, especially during weary and bogged down times. I realise i need to grow in that, among others.
What does money mean to you? This was one question posed to us during one of our first lectures. I found it intriguing as this question would inevitably show some of our inner thoughts and views in life, given the significance of money in our lives. As i scribbled down in my notes "Money = Paper for livelihood", we discussed among our groups and there were thoughts like "Money is a tool for buying things", "Money is the rewards and justifications of the effort put in" etc. But what struck me more was when comments like "Money is power/freedom" and "Money can buy you anything". So when the lecturer decided to question the latter question and ask if money could buy us love, i sensed there was a rush of thinking caps, as everyone paused to hear what reply came out after the initial laughter. Naturally, there was no reply. Made me think about the stark contrast between what we are exposed to the past few months as compared to the next few months. As the school term starts and workloads and stresses come in, i have my concerns.
But God is faithful. I am thankful for that, that even as He tests, He is there with us. And we need to believe that He does not intend to fail us, but train us to pass with flying colours. Only then will desert become dessert. As i end this blog journal i pray that the Acts 2:42-47 deal will come to pass. I pray that even as we get our heads into our school work and stressful times, that we do not forget our fundamentals. On a lighter note, we celebrated Seow Wei's birthday yesterday. =) I pray that her meditated verse (Deut 31:6) will come to pass, that she'll grow more courageous in the Lord. Also, the first day of the EPL kicked off, and Arsenal defeated Everton 6-1, a pleasant surprise indeed, after coming under heavy criticism for the lack of squad depth in the past few months. It's like the fall of Jericho, Everton just melted away.
Look forward to the weeks ahead. Exciting times await.
Blessed by You,
Kuang Ting
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Sunday, August 9, 2009
Week 54 - Prep for school
God never fails to amaze me. As if last sem's 21 AU weren't challenging enough. This sem, different sets of expectations, different situations. I look down at my timetable on thurs, Bam! 8.30am to 6.30pm lessons non stop. AB005, business case, 7 weeks of 2 cases per week chionging. 2 core modules, consultancy and compensation and benefits, heavy workload as well. AB214, level 2 of communication fundamentals (now advanced) proves to be another project filled module all the way. Desert, certainly! No time for complaints and whining. I was suddenly remembered of Wilson's Matt 6:33 picture with its tumors. Classic.
One of the days of the week, i had the privilege of sleeping the whole day! It's just like God trying to tell me, rest, rest, rest. Exciting times lie ahead (with a =D). That aside, our family was also privileged to have a guest from Taipei (exchange programme with my sis's school) for the past 2 weeks. It was a good time of sharing and understanding about Taipei's culture, about their education systems and stuff, debunking the "myths and legends" of Taipei = Shilin Food + Xi Men Ding Food.
Also a good week of meeting up with fellow brothers, and catching up with each other's lives before school starts. This sem proves to be a different experience, and i look forward, even with that little trepidation, to knowing God more and more through this period. 2 main focuses will be on servant leadership and agape love, even during dark hours. And importantly, to be single minded for the kingdom of God, dying to self centredness as well.
What's next after matric 09? In the area of service, ushering, that is. Had a great time of ushering today, a new experience and much to learn as well. CG time was extended after dinner, and it was really interesting to see old school jokes and riddles coming out of the box by the NIE teachers-to-be (Liyun, Gracia, Shanrui - Calyn was already stoning) and Taylen's "my turn" sign. I just silently hoped the people sitting beside us weren't too pissed off with the huge din we made. 9 August. Let me be a little patriotic by saying a happy 44th bday to our nation. After which it's back to NTU. Book in loh!
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Saturday, August 1, 2009
Week 53 - Forty days and nights of temptations?
Our minds are like marinated pork ribs. They take on the character of whatever we soak them in. Only after going through the fire, however, does our true flavour come out. Let's marinate our minds in the ways of the Lord. =)
Amidst a week of teachings and medicine and rest, came the doctor's interesting comment the first thing she saw me: "Must be your nose again right?" which hit the nail spot on. One year ago a bout of tonsilitis bogged me down for 2 whole weeks (the first 2 weeks of school), and i'm thankful that this time round it struck before August. The time of the year, where dust and incense and yes, cigarette smoke, hover harmlessly yet menacingly in the air.
Finally shopped! Good time of fellowship with Eng Seng, though i'm kinda sheepish about the fact that in the end i bought some stuff while he didn't find what he wanted. Also want to pray for Shanrui, that the Lord will pour out His harvest into her life as she lives her Christian walk in her next year on God's green earth. =)
Hate buffets. They tempt. =D FLEE...
Blessed in another week with God,
Kuang Ting
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hey bro!
do drop by my blog also >,<
cassie-eva.blogspot.com
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